Alyanna Ballerina

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My beautiful little dancer. Well she’s not so little anymore. She’s doing Grade 4 ballet now. She’s fabulous and very determined to be on stage like Mummy and Daddy someday. So proud of her!  🙂

Being Grateful…

For the first time in my life, I felt scared. Scared of losing someone I love so much, my soulmate – my husband. That’s the first thing that came into my head. So many ‘what ifs’ and sleepless nights, thinking of the worst thing that could possibly happen.

A few weeks ago, my faith had been tested when my husband had a slight sign of prostate cancer. So I accompanied him to see the doctor. After conducting a few tests, we found out the result today, and it’s negative! Woohoo! 🙂 I knew in my heart that everything will be alright, and God will not let me go through another battle after a loss last year. But I admit, it did scare me, and I truly thank God for this blessing. I don’t think I can handle another trial after losing my dearest mother.

There were things that we lost already and those things didn’t matter to me as they were replaceable. But my husband is irreplaceable. He is one in a million. I am not saying this because he is my lifetime partner, but I am truly blessed with this man.

Ever since we met in 1996 in Bochum, Germany, I knew that he’s the one. He always had this positive aura that can capture a woman’s heart, so I didn’t waste time and had to do something to win him. Haha! A great friendship blossomed since then. He never changed after 13 years of our happy marriage. Well 14 years in total. I never knew what true happiness was until we got married. He showed me and made me ‘feel’ the true meaning of LOVE, and even made me a better person. I married him for true love, not for what he can offer me. At least he knows that he has me through thick and thin. I love him for the way he is, not for what he does. A lot of women want to be secure with their men in terms of money and the things they can offer them even if they are not truly happy with their company. Not me though. My dream is just to be with someone who will truly love the real me and be there for me forever, who will not bore me with his company, who can talk about anything under the sun, who have the same interest. And God made that dream possible.

After hearing the good news, it only confirmed what’s really important in life – Be healthy and spend your life happily with your loved ones. As long as we are together, wherever the storm takes us, I am happy. He has given me a lot already  and I am truly grateful. And even if we don’t have all the luxuries in life, one thing I can really show off is my beautiful family. And that’s all that matters in life.  Whenever I look at my husband and my daughter, I can proudly say, ‘I did well.’ I’m so proud of them!

Let me finish this blog with a simple prayer of gratitude.

‘Dear God, thank you for the most wonderful blessing you have given me – my family. I pray for good health, love and more happiness. I also pray for having a wonderful sister who is always there to support me in all the trials that come my way. Thank you for my faith, and for making me believe in You. Thank you for looking after my family. Thank you for Garry. Keep him safe while doing the world arena tour of WWRY musical. Amen.’

Have a great weekend everyone, and remember to wear a big SMILE! Always….  🙂

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‘The Gift of an Ordinary Day’

I was there for my daughter since I gave birth to her. Now that she’s 11 years old, I don’t regret every minute of it. I saw her grow each day. I make sure that after school, I am there to spend time with her, despite all the things that I do. This video made me even cherish more what I have. Motherhood is never easy. In fact it is the hardest role I have ever played in my life. I hope that every mother out there or anyone who is looking forward to motherhood, will take a moment to watch this video. Have a great day! 🙂

The month of LOVE…

Whenever February starts, there is only one thing in mind – Valentine’s Day! 🙂

January has been such a busy month for me, that’s why I haven’t written for awhile. Very grateful though for all the blessings that showered the beginning of my 2013. Hope blessings come your way too as we celebrate Chinese New Year this weekend, Year of the Snake. Well I’m  not Chinese but I do believe in some Chinese traditions. I believe that snake is goodluck. My mum always told me that. Everything in our house was quite Chinese, and red was my Mum’s favorite color. Red is the color of goodluck she said. But for me, it’s the color of LOVE.

I was such in a great mood the other day trying to squeeze in an hour for my fruit shopping at the Saturday market after teaching the whole morning. An hour because after that my daughter had to do another dance class.  So I left her and my hubby at home whilst I do my shopping.

An unexpected incident happened at the car park. I have encountered the most horrid man in our town. I was patiently waiting for a car to move so I can take her spot when suddenly a red car blocked the car I was waiting for to leave. The man had two young girls with him, assuming his daughters. He wasn’t very happy at all as I was blocking his way to turn left. He got out of his car and suddenly shouted at me to move as he needed ‘his’ space to leave the car park. I opened my window, calmly replied and said my piece nicely. I was there first waiting for the car to leave before he started blocking my spot. I asked nicely if he can do a little reverse to give way for the car, so that I can park and then he can make his move. Give and take. But the man refused to reverse his car, got angry instead and called me a ‘bitch’. I was there first and I’m a bitch. Wow! He didn’t move at all. So the car I was waiting for had no choice either but wait till the red car moves. Even if I reverse my car, there was no space for this red car to turn left since it was a very narrow single way. I can’t go forward either as there was another car there. He was really giving me and the other car a hard time.  Finally the car this man blocked was able to move as the car infront of her left. But still there was no space for me to take the spot as he was still there blocking my way. Luckily the car infront of me gave way for me so I can go around the red car, which I did. As I was going around the ‘gentleman’ in the red car, I looked at him, shook my head while he called me names. I gave in for him and I ended up being verbally abused. I felt sorry for this man with two girls witnessing their father’s attitude. 

After that incident, I stayed in the car for about 5 minutes just to breath and calm myself down. I closed my eyes and reflected on what just happened. If I was short tempered like this man, I would have ended being hurt by a man like him. I was already being assaulted by a stranger, so I thought what I did was right – to stay calm and just wait for this man to leave. But I also realized that you can’t expect a stranger to be nice all the time. It only shows that there are unhappy people out there who are not loved. To show LOVE, you need to feel loved. A man who is happy won’t act that way esp a father to two young pretty girls. As I got out of the car to get a parking ticket, the woman inside the car I was waiting for to leave was still there. She asked me if I was alright. Now that was nice. I felt relieved that someone saw what happened. 

Was my day ruined?  NO! I did what I had to do in town. I went home in one piece, composed and calm. I told the story to my husband and he gave me a big tight HUG.

So, the month of LOVE may not be all about the LOVE you’re expecting but still – spread it, show it, feel it! I know it’s not what you expected to read from the title of this blog. You thought I was going to be nostalgic, right?  Haha Gotcha! 🙂 

At the end of the day, it is us who can choose how we want to be in every situation. I chose to be myself, I chose to be safe than sorry, I chose to come home to my beloved family. 

Have a nice day! 🙂